Monday, October 27, 2008

Officially, I am dreading



No kidding.

I got back my Log Response today and its freaking 2+, AGAIN. 2 over 5, in case you are wondering.


Why the hell I can't get a higher mark?


I so don't want to fail this class. I am already dreading about which university I should apply, and don't want to have one more burden on my back. Sigh.


Can't my life just be easier?


It's freaking freaking killing my brain cells. And there's another response waiting for me to hand in on Wednesday.


And I'm so sure I'm going to get a 2 again.



Song which suits my mood now:


Free Loop (Solo) - Daniel Powter

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Snow. Bloody freaking snow.

The day before yestereday, was the first time I saw snow in front of my eyes, in freaking October. And before that day, people always said how beautiful the snow was when they were falling and rubbish like that. But on that day, I totally couldn't appreciate the prettiness of it and not to say enjoy it. It's so freaking cold and after my 3rd period, I need to walk to Portable to have my Math class. And it's so not awesome.

Actually when I was at the door, preparing myself for the cold strong wind I'd receive once I stepped outside, I saw how foggy it was out there and saw it was raining too, but I paid no attention to it and step outside. And this was the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life.

That's why nobody's out there.

It's not rain, it's snow.

I hadn't worn my jacket.

I was going to be a popsicle.

Only thinking back that day made me have goosebumps. Gosh- I can't believe my first time of snowing is this unawesome. Is this even a word?

I'd just watched the latest video of Jonas Brothers, you know, Lovebug. Not being a Jonas Bros fans, I don't really pay attention to them. But this song is quite catchy and it's still in my head now. The video is good, and it features Camilla Belle, she's sooo pretty. Joans Bros had sure thrown a lot in to make this video.

Really. I am anticipating the NaNoWriMo, but dreading about next week.

I can't believe I need to write like 3 essays for 1 class. Is that even legal? And because of the very low grade I got for the first one I'd written, I had zero confidence in my upcoming one.

Yeah, I know, my english is not good. But I tried my best, right? For a non-english speaking person, I think my english is okay. BUT, the grade I'd received last time is really like a bang in the head.

Poor.

And the nerdy side of me is dreading because Vampire Knight episode 4 is still not here, and there're 4 days to go until it updated again.

How nerdy.
And I don't really actually like anime and Japanese stuffs, blame my brother for contaminating me.

23/11, The Day.
The day which All Time Low, The Maine, Every Avenue and Mayday Parade will be in Toronto. And this is freaking me out, in a good kind of way though. I so want to go to watch them, since I'm kind of a big fan of ATL and The Maine. John from The Maine is really an eye-candy.

From this point, I need to resist the urge to giggle.

And my friend V had promised to go with me, since I had influenced her with this kind of music lately, only if nothing happened. Which made me really scared and don't want to get my hopes to high. Because usually in these kinds of circumstances, something will always happen. I'm not the world's luckiest person, and when I really want to do something, some other things will always block my way. And I am not kidding.

Last time I asked my brother to go to the Faber Drive concert with me in August. Yeah, I know, why on earth will you ask your brother to go to a concert with you? Makes no sense right? But I'm new to here and didn't have any friends yet and going alone will be extremely awkward, and I REALLY (notice the captialization?) want to see Faber Drive (one of the supporting bands of Simple Plan's concert), so I asked him to go with me. And I even offered to pay his ticket.

"There's no way I'm going to stand for three hours just to hear some guys shrieking." That's what he said.

"These bands don't shriek, they are not even metal." I told him patiently.

"Same Sh!t."

If I am going to write a book about my life with my brother, I'm sure I'll be a national bestseller author, only if I can write better english, and that's what this blog is for. If I am really going to write it, I'll name it "Why My Brother is An Idiot". Good name huh?

Anyway, I think I shoud continue doing my Math homework, and start to work on those essays as soon as possible. And I still hadn't done the laundry, and prepared dinner. GOD. Can I just pause the time like Hiro from Heroes? My world would be so much easier.